Written the previous night.
Today is the day after Christmas of 2015. Today is going horribly wrong and it’s just the beginning, the root, of my new life. This is going to be where it changes.
Yesterday, I heard this R&B song in the movie theater. The lyrics were:
“Truth can hurt you. Truth can change you.”
Before going into the theater I was talking to a friend of mine. It ended with the fact that I need to improve myself. Then when I talked to the same friend again today, the conclusion was that I need to stand on my own and that there wasn’t any more suggestions to be given because I haven’t improved anything about myself in the three years I’ve been receiving advice from this friend. It hurt to hear some of the things that were said. Nothing said was said in a malicious way. It was things I needed to hear. It was the truth. Now I need to take that truth and change myself for the better. I need to improve.
Here is a list of some attributes that I need to improve on:
- My body
- My appearance
- Lack of confidence
- Lack of emotional control
- Lack of purpose
- My negativity
- Being defensive and argumentative
- Being self-centered
- Inability to take fun risks
Here is a list of some activities that I need to try and complete:
- Learn a foreign spoken language
- Learn to play the guitar
- Rock climbing
- Vehicle maintenance
- Travel (especially international)
- People watching
- A social sport team
- Base jumping
- House building
- Learn to fly
- Learn to have fun dancing
- A get-away festival
I’m at the root of who I could be as a person. I can only grow from here. I’m putting things down so I feel obligated to do it and to document the process. Hopefully I become something great.